It is approximately 6 months until my next pageant. It's almost a month after the new year and things aren't as bright and beautiful as I envisioned. Isn't it always like that though? At the beginning of the new year we aspire, dream, and hope bigger than ever before. I am among these dreamers. I day dream. I go back to sleep to finish dreams. Sometimes I lucid dream. The point? I, like many dreamers, have been disenchanted after the new year actually got here. I wanted to eat healthy and workout and be on top of my homework and follow a schedule! There are just so many ands! I like to think I'm realistic and sometimes I am gruesomely honest with myself and others yet when it comes to being a better me; it's the hardest. I have so many excuses and lately I have been using them. I've used everyone. Here's a list:
The honest truth is, is that if I didn't do my hair and makeup, I could workout. If I woke up when my first alarm when off I could get these things done. I'm listing these things because I'm sure we all can relate to these reasons. What's important is that I've been letting negative, personal negativity, get in the way of my success. Perhaps I don't believe in myself or have enough courage to make these things happen. If that's the case it's okay because self-realization is the key to success! I will believe in myself. I've been working towards my success and while on the surface it seems like I haven't done a thing, I have made strides towards accomplishing my goals. I have successfully fundraised $400 for the pageant! Half of that coming from selling my stuff I don't use or want anymore. I am getting rid of clutter and making a profit. I've cleaned my kitchen of ALL foods that I find extraordinarily tempting. (goodbye giant pancake stacks!) Now, I haven't given up coffee and I actually probably tripled my coffee intake but my sugar intake has gone down- those are my biggest food addictions. I even have gotten my roommates to recycle and compost. Despite me not studying all the times I think I should, I'm not actually behind in any work. In the next couple of weeks I'm getting my head shots done. I've got a hair appointment to go for something I'm excited about. I've meal prepped for a quarter of meals this week. I've spoken up about my schedule at work and making more time for school. I'm taking charge of my life and I will be ready for the pageant and I will be the person I want to be. |
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