I'm getting nervous, real nervous. Lately, I've been getting these overwhelming feelings that I'm not good enough. I know I should practice more, work out more, eat healthier but part of my reasoning for doing this pageant is that I wanted to go as who I am now and represent for all those women and girls don't fit the exact mold.
It also has been a real struggle to find affordable, vegan make-up. It's almost an oxymoron to have affordable and vegan make-up in the same sentence. I barely had any make-up before I decided to do the pageant and now that I'm a vegan there's even less. I mean I've updated and I'm going to do a big make-up post soon about all the things I've gotten to do this pageant vegan.
I've also struggled with tanning. Do I tan? Do I not tan? I've always wanted to be tan and this is the perfect excuse to go get a bomb spray tan. On the other hand, I should be representing all of the pale kids out there who don't tan like I do and be a role model of healthy body image. It's no wonder girls are so confused these days as to how they should look and act. There are so many conflicting images!
All I have left is to practice. I keep trying on different hair ideas. I'm watching so many youtube tutorials. I have to finish stalking up my make-up regime to even start practicing. I'm waiting for bikini (I have 8 and none were good enough) and my evening gown to come in the mail. I have to find my interview wear this week. I'm thinking Thursday I'll go shopping.
It also has been a real struggle to find affordable, vegan make-up. It's almost an oxymoron to have affordable and vegan make-up in the same sentence. I barely had any make-up before I decided to do the pageant and now that I'm a vegan there's even less. I mean I've updated and I'm going to do a big make-up post soon about all the things I've gotten to do this pageant vegan.
I've also struggled with tanning. Do I tan? Do I not tan? I've always wanted to be tan and this is the perfect excuse to go get a bomb spray tan. On the other hand, I should be representing all of the pale kids out there who don't tan like I do and be a role model of healthy body image. It's no wonder girls are so confused these days as to how they should look and act. There are so many conflicting images!
All I have left is to practice. I keep trying on different hair ideas. I'm watching so many youtube tutorials. I have to finish stalking up my make-up regime to even start practicing. I'm waiting for bikini (I have 8 and none were good enough) and my evening gown to come in the mail. I have to find my interview wear this week. I'm thinking Thursday I'll go shopping.